Entries for April, 2006

April 24th, 2006

The Phantom's Poem

Trapped inside me

was fear of your fury...

the insecurity you've created...

you only showed disgust and hatred

gradually murdering my joy, my laughter

my soul, you brutally slaughtered

worse than the brandish of a sword upon a face

id rather wish i could meet death's embrace

worse than blood pouring rapidly from a body

I plead for compassion, grovel for mercy

slowly I die 

Suddenly forgotten how to cry

Better not to feel this dread

until my soul is dead.

My heart is numb

without emotion

yet i sill breathe

alive, full of detestation

You've poured the fuel

to my raging fumes of anger

revenge is my ultimate purpose

Now you shall suffer

Its part of life, you see

the cycle of evil from you

rotates now in me

Yoda was right,

you belligerent fool

to tamper with ones fear

would be your death's tool

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What did I do?

God,what have i done?

What am i saying

Im speaking the devil's tongue

Dont blame me for what I am

I did not intend to transform like them

A little compassion

I ask of you

Understand the every detail of my horrid past

That i have been through

Immersed in misery and madness

Now I suffer in solitude's silence

Currently feeling: angry
Posted by poetindisguise at 09:40 PM | Add a Comment

LOVE

Love surpasses the boudaries of practicality
it extends to the infinite
covering its warmth in this cold world
Love knows no norms
nor does it recognize imperfections
Love defy's pragmatism
Love is beauty
Love is the reason why there is a purpose
It is the reason why there is reason
Love cannot be conquered and controlled
It comes as the sudden caress of the wind
And its sensation is forever
Love is me loving you...
Without you loving me back
Love is the overflow of justice
It is another dimension of truth
It makes you hope for the impossible
And it conquers the impossible
It is the light in raging storms of despair
Love makes you want to live
It is beyond the cirlcle of words...
Beyond perfection...
Beyond life...
Love is GOD

Currently feeling: loved
Posted by poetindisguise at 09:42 PM | Add a Comment

SICK OF ENGLISH(12)

SICK OF ENGLISH

Andito ngayon sa gitna ng klase

Inaaral ang libro ni Dante

sinusubukan makinig sa aralin

May sinasabi ang guro sa amin

Ngunit di ko maunawaan

ang isip ko'y nasa buwan

Ako lang ba ang walang maintindihan?

Oh, mga kaklase, tayo na ay mag-aminan!

Tumingin nalang ako sa labas ng bintana

Ang daming puno, rallyista at binata (hehe, wala nakong maisip na rhyme)

Ano ba ang sinasabi mo, prof ko

ako na ay nahihilo

mag exam nalang  po tayo

at ako'y napupunta na sa purgatoryo

Ano nga pala ulit ang estorya ng "Inferno"?

Hay, natututo na akong makatulog

na nakabukas ang mata

at least may natutunan, diba?

paano ba ito tatapusin?

Ganito nalang ang kanyang ending..

~THE END~

Posted by poetindisguise at 09:43 PM | Add a Comment

Poetry in English (12)

Poetry in English (12)

Literature, lit lit lit!

How interesting thou art!

So many wondrous writings

I dont know where to start

Lets just go home.

~The End~

Currently feeling: sick
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Di Matapos/ Cant Stop

Di Matapos

Heto na naman ako
nababaliw kakaisip sayo
tapos na ang bakasyon
kay lapit na ng pasko


Ang simoy ng hangin nagbago na
Paligid ay mabilis na lumalamig
Ngunit itong nadarama para sa iyo
Bakit kaya hindi mayanig-yanig?
Tatagal kaya ng isang taon,
Malagpasan pa kaya ng bagyo’t ambon?
Ang damdaming ito na matigas ang ulo
Wala ng giniwa kundi manggulo

Paano na kaya ang pakiramdam na ito?
Masasayang na naman ba?
Palagi naman, siguro nga
Ngunit paano kung may pag-asa pa?

Maghihintay nalang ba palagi ako

na ngitian muli ni bathala't ng mundo

na umasa nalang  sa inang kalikasan

na sana siya'y gumawa ng paraan?

Aasa nalang ba sa mapaglarong tadhana  

 upang maipahiwatig niya ang nadarama ko

Ewan ko ba,mukha ba akong tanga?

Oh ganyan lang talaga ang mga tao sa mundo?

Oo na, sige na!

Sira na kung sira ako

 gusto't mahal kita ng lubos-lubos

Di kasalanan na damdaming ito'y

 di maubos -ubos

 Can't Stop

*English Version*

Here I am again
Going crazy, thinking of you
vacations already over
Christmas' coming soon

As the chilling breeze fills the air
and the winds turn suddenly coldThis feeling which I have for you
Never seems to grow old
Would this last a year or so?
Would it withstand the rain?
This emotion’s killing me
All it gives my ass is pain
What will happen this emotion
Would all turn to friggin waste?
It always has and will probably be
But somehow I still hope for you and me

Will I just sit still and wait

for the smile of the gods and friendly fate

to conspire with the vast universe to

finally find a way for us, two

Will I always rely on destiny

to show you how much you mean to me?

Or am im dreaming like a psychopath-lunatic

Fine! I admit im a fool and a hopeless romatic

Its not my fault and its not a sin

If I cant stop this feeling I'm in

(this verse so bart)

The End

Posted by poetindisguise at 09:46 PM | 4 comments

Purple

I wish we could be purple

in this love design

You and me combined

Me and you intertwined

just like pink and blue

Purple, one made from two

Excuse me, but purple is not green ok

Its not just any subliminal hue

Its love with a touch of red

and white so pure and true

added to a life thats full of misery

to a journey so lonely and blue...

 

Currently feeling: weird
Posted by poetindisguise at 09:49 PM | Add a Comment

STARS

 

Countless dots of light cascading above the rooftops

imprinted on the collosal dark sky

A million light years away from us

Yet tis still there..

Watching over us...

glowing..shining...living

Quietly it watches as humanity grows

Day by day and night by night

Under its glow one finds the way

Its because of its brilliant sparkle

one find hope in despair

as it boldy shines against the black hole of night

With a star man becomes one

together  mesmerized by its incomprehensible beauty

What a marvelous bewitching mystery

To feel the life before i lived

To see life which will live beyond my existence

A star... another proof God is there

 

Currently feeling: Mesmerized
Posted by poetindisguise at 09:51 PM | Add a Comment

Buntong Hininga

 

Puso koy tumatalon sa galak tuwing ika'y nakikita

Bumbilis ang paghinga ,umaasang lalapit ka

bigla nala'y lumapit ka at ngumiti sa akin

at pisngi ko nama'y namula

Sana'y di halata ang lubos na pagnanasa

na sanay manatili(o tumambay :P) ka pa

Ginantihan kita ng isang ngiti

Nanginginig ang aking binti

Ang aking tahimik na wika ay sanay dinggin

pagbigyan sana ang aking hiling

Sa iyong paglisan, ako'y muling nasawi

Hanggang buntong hininga nalang

at isang sekretong ngiti...

Currently feeling: sighs
Posted by poetindisguise at 09:54 PM | Add a Comment

Talk to Me

Tell me the untold story

behind your cold devious eyes

eyes that stare intently into mine

full of pretense and disguise

Tell me what you're not saying

with those lips pursed with a smile

a smile deceitful as your silence

both conspiring to beguile

 

Tell me why you secretly tremble in fear

as you clasp your cold shaky hands

hands that create melancholic works of art

that take me away to lonely lands

 

Show me the truth of who you are

whether you're real or just a lie

you're such a mystery to me

like a lightning in the sky

 

Tell me what it is you're feeling

what it is you're thinking...

Its ok, I'm here to listen

no pretensions

just good intentions

Tell me what you want to say

There'll be no judging

about the problems in your way

and if it seems the state you're in

never seems to see the sun

Hold on just a little more

have hope, this too, shall be done.

Currently feeling: recumbent
Posted by poetindisguise at 09:57 PM in Insecurity | 1 comments

LIHIM

Ako'y natapilok, nahulog, nadapa

nasawi, nalungkot, nasira...

Mahilig magpakawala ang damdaming ito

bakit ko ba gustong gusto

mahulog ang puso ko sa iyo??

Hindi kita pinipilit

hindi kita pinapaibig

sana lang malaman mo

may isang babaeng tulad ko

na matagal ng naglilihim sayo

ang makapiling ka sa tabi ko

isang langit na pinagkakaila mo

Sira! wag ka magpakafeeling!

Wag lumaki sana ang ulo

baka sapatusin ko ito...

Pero, di nga, talagang gusto kita

wala naman yun sayo

Lupa't langit pinaghalo

Nandyan ka nga sa aking tabi

Nakikipagtawanan gabi gabi

Araw araw tumitindi

ang emosyong na itong iyong sinindi

Pero hanggang kaibigan na lang ang ating tawagan

dahil sa lihim na itong di mo malalaman...

Currently feeling: lonely
Posted by poetindisguise at 09:59 PM in Love | 1 comments

DO YOU KNOW THIS?

you think you know

but you really dont

what does that make you?

you think you know

when in fact

you do not know

that you do not know

what does it say about you?

you think you're hot

when you're really not

you think your cute

but your attitudes acute

so stop the act

its not a fact

so what does it tell about you?

you think your wise

but then again not

so stop pretending

to be someone your not

you think youre cool

when youre just a tool

of desperate vanity

of so-called-beauty

you think youre liked

but everyone hates you

betrays and loathes you

despises and abhors you

backstabs and laughs at you

better just die

or they're gonna try

to toss you into the sky

so you'd fall down dead

coz they're so fed (up)

with you.

Maybe its better this way

for you to not know

but assume to rather know

another world you've created so

then you'd not be hurt

and you'd never know

what fool you were

and not be like i am now...

oblivious to the crowd

insecure and confused

pathetic and used

you and i are the same

this is life's game

pathetic isnt it?

how misery loves company

but its true

Im sorry.

 

 

Currently feeling: insecure
Posted by poetindisguise at 10:00 PM in Hate, Insecurity | Add a Comment

April 25th, 2006

Pwede magtanong?

Paano kaya kung perpekto tayong lahat? Kung lahat tayo nagmamahalan, nagbibigayan, nagsisiyahan at magkakaibigan? Paano kaya kung perpekto ang mundo? Sana utopia nalan noh? Para parang langit na sa Mundo at wala ng hirap? Siguro ang saya kung lahat ng ninanais natin makukuha dahil lahat tayo'y nagbibigayan at nagpapasensyahan, noh? Pero kung ganun ang mundo, may silbi pa kaya ang langit? Maniniwala pa ba tayo sa Diyos? Bakit naman hindi? Problema lang ba ang dahilan kung bakit tayo naniniwala sa Diyos? At pagpapasalamat sa Diyos pagnalagpasan ang problema? At gawing dahilan ang Diyos sa mga masama at mabubuting pangyayari dahil ito ang nais ng Diyos? Kaya lang ba tayo naniniwala dahil takot tayo sa kakalabasan ng kamatayan? Takot mapunta sa hell? Ano ba? Bakit di nalang ginawa ng Panginoon na perpekto para masaya Siya at pati na rin tayo? Si Adan at Eba pa kasi nagsala e, diba? Nasa garden of eden sana tayo ngayon noh? Ano kayang itsuro nun? Pero mas gustong malaman, ano kaya ang pakiramdam dun?

Pero kung Perpekto ang mundo, di kaya maging boring? Ano ba ang nagpapakulay sa mundo? Siguro kung "perpeko" nga ang mundo, may masaya pa kaya? Kasi paano mo malalaman ang pakiramdam ng kasayahan kung hindi mo alam ang pakiramdam ng pagiging malungkot? Paano ka magiging matapang kung wala ka naman dapat katakutan? Paano mo malalaman ang pagiging excited kung alam mo namang lahat ng darating sayo maganda? Siguro ang silbi ng problema sa buhay ay para rin natin matutunan ang ibig sabihin ng kabaligtaran nito-ang pakiramdam ng walang problema-kasayahan, pagpapasalamat, pagpupuri, pagmamahal, kagalakan at kung anu ano pang mga emosyon, noh? Tingin mo?

Pero bakit tayo magmamahal e masasaktan rin naman tayo? Bakit tayo magiging kaibigan kung magiging mag-kaaway rin tayo? Bakit tayo lalapit kung iiwas rin tayo? Bakit magprapractice kung magkakamali rin pala tayo? Bakit tayo magsusummer kung wala naman palang magawa? BAKIT? Bakit pa tayo nabubuhay kung mamatay rin tayo??? Ha? Ha? Sagutin mo ako, pwede? Ano ba ang silbi ng buhay? Ano ba ang ibig sabihin ng buhay? Bakit nga ba tayo nabubuhay ng mga ibat ibat salungat na pangyayari na hindi natin maintindihan? Bakit ang daming ironies ng buhay? Bakit? Higit sa lahat, bakit ako nagsusulat dito sa blog ko at tinatanong toh sa mga tao,e wala rin namang makakasagot? Kung meron, pwdeng pakisagot ako? Salamat ha?

 

Ano? Nababaliw ka na ba o naiinis na sa mga pinagtatanong ko? Sorry ha? Masama ba magtanong?

Currently feeling: pensive
Posted by poetindisguise at 11:35 AM | Add a Comment