Whats Up with Life?

The most dreadful moment that could ever possibly happen to me is when I decide to surrender to hopelessness and detest all the idealisms left in me. The time I shall begin to renounce poetries, songs, writings and works of love or misery or passion for life is the day I will stop all expressions of art - the day wherein I would just be living only to exist. That is perhaps the day I will begin to feel numb. If only numbness occured by choice then I would definetely rather feel than be cold... but because this develops from the delusions of hope which time refuses to reward, I might unknowingly become like one of them soon...- those who have forgotten the zest for life.  I feel like I have started to venture into the convenience of the other side and it scares me a lot to find too much comfort in that practical place. The momentum of my life might stop and I will not be able to grow with too much easiness.

God, I hope I will not find too much comfort in anything.

After months and months of trying to come up with the perfect tune for my poem "Buntong Hininga", I finally finished it today! Wopee! I expanded on the original version to be able to compose a longer and more melodious song. The original version is in one of my previous posts. :)

 

Buntong Hininga

verse1

Puso ko'y tumatalon tuwing ika'y nakikita

Tuwing ikaw ay padaan

May nangyayari sa akin

na di maintindihan

 

nanginginig ang binti

namumula ang pisngi...

 

Refrain:

Tahimik na wika sana'y dinggin

pagbigyan sana ang aking hiling

Manatili ka sana wag kang umalis

O iiwanan mo nalang ba ako?

 

Chorus:

Buntong hininga na naman

at pagkasawi

ang aking nadarama na naman

sa paglisan mong muli

 

Verse2

Ngumiti ka sa akin

at ika'y nangamusta

sabi ko, "Mabuti naman"

Di mo lang alam

O di mo lang alam

 

Nanginginig ang binti

Namumula ang pisngi

*refrain - chorus

 

Sa iyong paglisan ako'y muling nasawi

Hanggang buntong nalang ba?

Buntong hininga na naman?

Buntong hininga nalang ba

At isang sekretong ngiti...